I opened the curtains on to a bright, sunny day. I watched a lone paraglider spiral slowly down through the perfect blue sky.
It was Christmas morning and I was alone. In a motel room in Queenstown, New Zealand.
“It’s just another day!” I had assured Sue, my travelling companion, convinced that it wouldn’t trouble me at all. Her boyfriend had flown out to join her for Christmas. Mine hadn’t. He was far too busy. Far to important. Traits that would ultimately clinch his place among the ranks of the X-Men!
But it’s not just another day. By my own choice, I was on the other side of the planet from my loved ones and I missed them like hell!
Christmas breakfast was dry toast and kiwi jam, which made a change from the usual motel breakfast of 2 tinned peaches and 2 slices of bread. That, it seemed, was too complicated for the kitchen on Christmas Day. I did get clean towels – they probably tasted the same!
We are nearly a day ahead, so it is not yet Christmas at home, but I couldn’t help thinking of the Christmas traditions. Dad employing differential calculus to work out the cooking time for the 28lb turkey that Mum gets, regardless of numbers for dinner. Dad down on one knee; one eye closed for accuracy, planning how to get it into the oven with minimal loss of limbs (from the turkey, that is.) I wouldn’t be there for a homely chat with Mum as we cut crosses into the stalks of interminable mounds of sprouts and prepared tractor loads of root vegetables.
Sue and Adrian rescued me from my reverie and we motored over to the Shotover Gorge. Jet boats shattered the peace, even on Christmas Day. We had an impromptu picnic lunch at Arrowtown, a pretty, colonial gold town. We had just two sparrows and a shifty looking seagull for company.
The plan for the evening was a trip to ‘The World‘ bar, which offered ‘A Refuge for Lonely Backpacker Orphans’. $15 bought Christmas dinner and a present from Santa – the dodgiest-looking Santa I have ever seen. He was smoking a roll-up and had more tattoos than Billy-Bob Thornton in the film Bad Santa!
We lasted approximately 15 seconds in The World. Through the backpacker grapevine, we learnt later that the present that we missed out on was some noodles, a condom and a Christmas cracker!
We looked for somewhere ‘happening’ but Queenstown was basically closed, although we did manage to score a turkey dinner in ‘Abbey Road’ for $8.95. We wandered back to the motel past festively lit homes. The glow behind the curtains suggested laughter and love, maybe the odd argument; but overwhelmingly, togetherness. The warm circle of family and friendship.
I tried to phone home, but every call box in town was surrounded by others doing the same. (This was B.C. – Before Canines and P.S. – Pre-Skype!) I resolved to rise with the worms – ahead of even the early birds – and try then. At 4am on Boxing Day, NZ time, I was overwhelmed with joy to speak to my family, who had just finished making a small dent in a rather large bird!
Just another day? It can’t be when you know that you’re on the outside when it seems that the whole of the world is celebrating!
Up to a million adults in the UK will be on their own at Christmas. There are practical actions that you can take which will help to combat loneliness, which as I discovered to my surprise, really does hit home at this time of year.
If you are lonely, you are not alone! People do care and there are many organisations and initiatives which may be able to help;
- The Jo Cox Commission on Loneliness was set up before the tragic death of MP Jo Cox, whose aim was to ‘turbo-charge’ the response to loneliness.
- How to Help Lonely People this Christmas – a link to a list of people and services who help to make Christmas more bearable for many.
- Age UK’s Telephone Befriending Service – would you or a loved one like to talk to someone every week? Volunteer to make or receive a weekly call.
- Campaign to End Loneliness – advice and resources on ending loneliness.
- The Samaritans – offer a safe place to talk, any time you like, about anything that is troubling you. You really don’t have to suffer alone!